Over that last couple of days I have had the chance to spend sometime alone...you can ask two or three of my friends and they will tell you that the first night of this "alone-ness" was NOT GOOD!!! I text and/or facebooked them, at what was probably too late in the night...and cried A LOT. After sending out those messages I laid in bed for a good 45 minutes to an hour and just Cried Out to God. Some of it was in anger and some of it was in fear. I was angry that I did not have someone to come to my "rescue" at that moment in time...and I was afraid of being alone (& in some ways I am still having to deal with this fear).
The next morning I woke up and was so much better...it is amazing what tears can do for a girl!!! And on top of that having those sweet friends that I mentioned earlier begin texting me and emailing me to say they loved me & were praying for me.
It amazes that I (or anyone for that matter) can be surrounded by numerous people that love and support them and still feel ALL ALONE!!! These handful of friends (& you know who you are) have loved on me through this last week without even realizing it. God is so good that He would not only use a GREAT FRIEND that I text, email & facebook daily to reach out and love me but He would use this WONDERFUL girl that I have never met in person that is WISE BEYOND HER YEARS to speak words of life into my Spirit.
FRIENDS...if I have emailed or texted you too much over this week I am SO SORRY for being a bother...but this sister needed more contact with you than usual!!! I love you all for hanging in there with me through this.
The rest of the week has been so much BRIGHTER!!! I spent quite a bit of time seeking God & feeling His presence right there with me.
I have a God that loves & adores me...and He has given me friends and family that I cherish & think about every minute of everyday!!!
"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8
1 comment:
praying for you hun...its through the lonely and dry times that we can draw to God the most...trust me, the times I have felt most alone have been the times I have been able to turn to God and feel the closest. Love you already and I'm here for ya! Keep seeking Him, He adores you more than you could ever fathom!
Psalm 8:3-5
Exodus 14:14
Psalm 27:14
Post a Comment